Elm Street

i think i am generally pretty posi, love life, affirm my interest in a state of being perpetually stoked. but, lately, the idea of time has started to really weigh on me. i am probably going to be alive for a while and that means making choices about how to fill my time -and there is alot of it to fill. ordinarily, that is something i do without thinking. i keep busy and rarely feel bored. if nothing else, i am pretty satisfied with my internal dialogue and personal jokes to feel okay about doing things i don't even really like that much because i always like making fun of things more than i dislike whatever i am forced to make fun of. but, my eternal flame of a pma is straining right now. i am just sort of at a loss with what to do. it's funny because it's a general fact. the thing is i have no idea what i will be doing at all after the next three weeks. i could literally fill my time with anything. i have zero plans and unlimited choices, which in a certain way makes making any decision harder. strangely, my new indecisiveness is also manifesting in my inability to do small things like decide what to eat, to read anything for more than a few pages at a time, or do anything besides lay in bed. this uneasiness is a normal part of any major transition i guess. but, it is sort of disappointing to be going through such a cliche crisis as i am about to graduate.

is it really so scary to be in the world?


i guess i have a pretty long lineage of people trying to turn dreams into reality.

horsey

everything about this is so good: its capturing of a complex friendship, the setting of a fire escape in new york, her deadpan stare with taut lips, his warm smirk and bulging veins.
talk about style icons! -did you see her shirt?

claire says this picture of mike and me from last summer (for the microcosm website) reminded her of the one of patti and robert.

did you notice that our hands are in the same position? i think my facial expression is more like mapplethorpe's but more pinched and pensive than affectionately, outwardly proud. i think the coincidental contrast of the brick verses the limestone block background brings in the specificity of place nicely. when i was really little, i hated the limestone blocks that make up most of the older buildings in bloomington. as i got older and realized they were particular to our region in south-central indiana, i got really stoked on them aesthetically. i started appreciating the way their craggy sides were left in tact rather than thinking they were too chunky and brutalist. plus i love swimming here:



thesis thesis thesis. does anyone care what i have to say about the meaning of an anarchist avant-garde? because, apparently, i have a lot to say about it.

the many hats of rebecca giordano

STOP THE INVAINITY

slurry

lately, i have been working on my ba thesis. it is pretty cool, and going okay but i have a pretty serious procrastination problem which is certainly not helped by either MATT FURIE or JOHN LURIE.

matt furie just had an opening in san francisco at adobe books. see?







there is so much to look at in these!!! plus, matt furie is the author of boys club, the single funniest thing i have read since that Laurie Weeks piece "My Massive Feelings".




this is one my favorite Lurie's, "My Name is Skinny. I am a Horse and I Want to Have Sex With Your Wife. Okay?" I don't wanna say that his paintings are bad, I DO wanna say that his titles are fucking GREAT.


this is a lurie paiting called "Surprise!." It is an internet phenomenon in Russia. It is, apparently, really cool to change the bear's speech bubble to say something like "Hello Bear."

Don't believe me?
check it: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bear_Surprise


You may remember John Lurie from all those Jarmusch movies he was in way back when he was a babe. You may also remember him from one of the best shows of all time, Fishing With John.


How am I supposed to do homework, when all the Fishing With John episodes are availble on youtube?

get your fill of John Lurie's paintings and their titles here.

SUSTENANCE

who needs work when you have snacks?

who needs to do homework when you can just go to the snack shop over and over like you are preparing for y2k?




as you can see, i like to keep a balanced diet of both pirate and cowboy spokes characters.

ode to friends I

so, i am trying to write this response for theories of media about the dialectic and like why i think it is TOTALLY LAME and not just cause Althusser said it was too teleological (is it ever reasonable to call something too teleological?i mean, isn't convergent totality what a teleology would require?), and all i am thinking is....

what's with hannah's face?





why can't hannah open her eyes?



here we go,



other faces with droopy lids that i love: